Thats what we say, right.
People ask how you’re doing and you almost don’t even pause to think about answering honestly.
You just say “I’m fine” or “I’m good”.
I think especially in blog world, we all have a tendency to only write positive things or things that are going good in our lives. Because lets be honest, the world is screaming that you have to have it all together.
But, how are you really doing?
I’ll be honest. I’m not doing well. This has been a really hard past week for me. Full of doubt. Full of fear. Full of tears. Full of questioning. Full of sadness.
While I don’t think I’m quite ready to write specifics yet, I do think i’m ready to admit that I’m sad. I’m sad and i’m okay with this season of life that God has me in right now. Because, despite circumstances beyond my control – God is good. & I choose to follow and rejoice in Him.
God knows about suffering.
We know from scripture that Christ suffered during His time here on Earth. We see it in His loneliness in the garden, His torture and humiliation as he walked to Calvary and in His crucifixion. But we also see Gods hand and purpose in all of it.
He ultimately provided an end to suffering.
In Revelation 21:4, it says “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”
There will be no more suffering, no more tears – because of the hope we have in Jesus Christ as our savior. Jesus took on all of that suffering to reconcile us to the Father, once and for all.
I know these things I just talked about and I believe them with all my heart and every ounce of who I am. But, it doesn’t mean I don’t feel sadness right now. I know the purpose of my life is to glorify Him and enjoy Him forever. I know because of Him, I am living eternal life right now (which my awesome Husband reminded me of last night).
I have joy in Him and am thankful for my life and all of the amazing people in it. But today, I am sad – heartbroken really – But I choose to praise Him.