Yesterdays post was pretty heavy for me. If I am being honest, the past two weeks have been very rough and everyone keeps saying there is no right way to handle loss – I totally agree with that, but it kind of makes it confusing to walk through. I will say I have found that my sweet husband helps, so does laughter with good friends, and sunshine.
I have really been thinking and praying on a certain verse a friend shared with me a few months ago: “Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails, and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.” Habakkuk 3:17-18
Things might seem to pile up on us sometimes, but God is here.
Proverbs 17:22 tells us “a joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.” I know I need this type of joy to overcome my sad heart. In prayer yesterday, I asked God, “How am I suppose to deal with this? How am I suppose to let this go? How am I suppose to feel better?” I confessed my sadness and confusion to God.
In that moment of surrender, He sweetly whispered “have joy in ME”. I realized joy didn’t mean feeling good all the time or being upbeat, because feelings are temporary. Joy is knowing that God is in control of your life, having assurance that everything is going to be okay and praising God in every season of life, good or bad.
So slowly, I know he will heal my heart and Kevin will help, and laughter… and sunshine. After all, it is summer, so I should have a lot of Texas sunshine coming my way. I love summer – the lake, shorts, floating the river, laying out, trips to sonic, tank tops… so many sweet memories. So bring on the healing, even if its slow, I’m ready for summer.
tank | home tee
shorts | (similar)
sandals | jack rogers