This is probably one of the hardest posts I have ever written. I think because I normally share all of my thoughts so easy. However, my words just don’t seem to fully depict what has been going on in my life and heart lately. It may not seem like I have been M I A to a lot of you, but I really have. The past week and a half has been incredibly hard.
Sunday, June 15th: Father’s Day. When I called to wish my dad a Happy Father’s Day, I was greeted by a voice on the end of the phone that didn’t sound very good. My dad told me that his dad, my pawpaw, wasn’t doing very good. We proceeded to talk for a while and a few other times throughout the night.
Monday, June 16th: My dad called at 6:30 in the morning to tell me that my PawPaw passed away during the night. Kevin got up with me and held me as I cried for a few hours then we both got ready for work to keep busy. I ended up spending most the day with Kevin and my bff Lauren. She was a great friend.
Tuesday, June 17th – Thursday, June 19th: Kevin and I headed to Lake Jackson to be with our parents and family. We had the viewing and funeral.
Friday, June 20th: My 24th Birthday. I found out my grandma’s boyfriend (since I was like 7) passed away. I was pretty sad most of the day, although Kevin and Lauren tried to cheer me up with shopping, dinner and a movie.
Overall, I have been extremely sad. Here is an excerpt from what I spoke about at my PawPaws funeral:
Sometimes, goodbye just doest feel right. Sometimes, its hard and painful. To say goodbye to a man I have known and loved my whole life.
To a man who:
fished with my dad every chance he got. His eyes would just light up even talking about going fishing with my dad. It was one of his favorite things to do. I have so many memories of them sitting outside in the garage and cleaning fish.
To a man who:
taught me how to crack pecans. & always tried to make me take a bag home even though I don’t even eat pecans. But, lets just say I always ended up going home with a bag or two.
To a man who:
always made the best pancakes for breakfast and
who backed into a car one time when he was taking me to get donuts before school and swore he just “grazed” the other car, when in reality he hit it and kept on driving me to school
To a man who:
who made me memorize this irrelevant german poem: A B C die katze lichten schnee. Die schnee gefecht die katze lichten drecht.
To a man who:
told me constantly how proud he was of me. In college, one time he sent me a card that had a green garden on the front and then when you open it up, it just says I am so proud of you. I think I have looked at the card a thousand times. Anytime I need encouragement, I just pull it out and read his words, also, when I graduated college, him and granny got me this ring that says “I’m so proud of you” on the inside so that I would have a constant symbol like the letter.
To a man who:
always held my hand when I was next to him
gave me the confidence to do anything I wanted
danced with me on my wedding day
would always let me eat as much candy as I wanted
& called me his little rascal
PawPaw was a great man who always put his family first and loved us with his whole heart. I already miss your hand holding mine. I will forever be you Little Rascal. I love you.
Marquis Clarke
So sorry for your loss. <3 Thinking of you.
Marquis Clarke
So sorry for your loss girl. That must have been so hard for you. When you feel up to it you should celebrate your birthday. I think they would have wanted you to enjoy your day!
Marquis Clarke
Oh hunny, I’m so sorry for your loss ♥ It’s hard when you lose people you know and love in one week.
Marquis Clarke
So sorry for what you’re going through! You and your family will be in my prayers! XO
Marquis Clarke
I’m so sorry for your loss! It’s unbelievably hard to lose a loved one, but just know that he’s watching over his little rascal forever! Praying for peace and comfort during this difficult time.
Brianna
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Marquis Clarke
So sorry for your loss! Your words about him are beautiful and he will live on through those special memories!
Marquis Clarke
I’m am extremely sorry for your loss. I’m hoping you have much brighter weeks ahead.
Marquis Clarke
I’m really sorry for your loss. It’s too hard to lose a beloved one , I hope you feel better x
Marquis Clarke
I’m so very sorry for your loss!
Marquis Clarke
my sincerest apologies! he sounds like a great man. hugs
Marquis Clarke
This brought tears to my eyes… So beautiful and so sorry my friend. If you ever need to talk or vent please know I’m here. Love you <3
Marquis Clarke
Loss is so hard. We recently lost my 2.5 year old nephew – so although I can’t understand completely, I know what it means to hurt, grieve, cry, etc!
Marquis Clarke
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Such a beautiful post. HUGS
Marquis Clarke
Thank you!
Marquis Clarke
I am sorry to hear that. Yes, loss is very hard.
Marquis Clarke
Thank you love! So appreciate your friendship. Hope you are having a blast on your family vaca!
Marquis Clarke
Thank you!
Marquis Clarke
Thank you Susannah!
Marquis Clarke
Thank you Noor, it is for sure.
Marquis Clarke
Thank you Dara.
Marquis Clarke
Thank you so much Claire!
Marquis Clarke
It really is. Thank you so much for your prayers.
Marquis Clarke
Thank you for your prayers Meaghan. I really appreciate it.
Marquis Clarke
Thank you! It really is, but getting through it slowly.
Marquis Clarke
Thank you, yeah its been slow but still tried to celebrate in the midst.
Marquis Clarke
Thank you Jess!
Marquis Clarke
Prayers for you as well, so sorry for your loss.